What makes us powerful? Is power found in bold, strong leadership and confidence? Or is it found in the broken soul who decides to get back up and push through the darkness?
I think it can be found in both, but it is all about what empowers us! If our actions and sense of confidence empowers us (our ego), then we may just end up stumbling on our own pride. But if faith empowers us, well we can find power even in our weakest moments.
Confidence has never come easy for me. I spent a lot of my life thinking that I needed to be bold and confident to be likeable or loved. I thought confidence would empower me! But I had it all wrong. I was actually trying to prove myself, in the hope that I would be considered a great and "perfect" person. It was all based on what others thought of me and my ego. The result, as you can imagine, was the opposite and I was left powerless. In fact every time I catch myself pushing for approval or acceptance, I feel the power drain from me. No one wants to be friends with someone who thinks they are "perfect"... That's not inspiring. What is inspiring is someone who knowns they are a bit unpolished but they go on to achieve greatness because they work hard, defy odds and have a little faith.
We can so easily give away our power the moment we dismiss our own humanity. As soon as we think we have it all figured out, we diminish our strength and potential that comes from being teachable, approachable, forgiving, vulnerable, and simply human.
I honestly believe we can't do life on our own. We need a little faith... a faith that empowers us. And it is in that place of faith-driven empowerment where confidence can be a beautiful thing; an assurance that comes from something more than our ego.
To me, being empowered is having the sense and self-control to hold my tongue when I feel like gossiping or being judgemental, because I am choosing to have faith in my character and the people around me. It is choosing to think the best of someone. It is choosing to forgive myself when I make a mistake (one of the hardest choices for me). It is finding peace and comfort in my own skin; resting in who I am rather than trying to prove myself.
I am better person because faith empowers me... but it goes deeper! Faith is the only reason I stand here, a whole person, today. It is impossible to separate God from my story, my journey, my success and failures. He is in the midst of every stitch and weave that makes the picture that is my life. I have never wanted to impose my beliefs on anyone, but I can't deny that it is my beliefs that have made me who I am today and been the primary source of my healing, restoration and wellbeing.
Being a faith-filled person means letting go of self and understanding that there is something greater outside of self... God is my greatness and I, being broken and imperfect, can rely on His greatness for my life. My life is made great in Him.
When we struggle to love ourselves there is no better answer than to say, I am loved by the one who made me and He values my life so why can't I? This has been one of the many truths I have clung to in some of my darkest moments. I am loved. I have faith in love. I don't have it all together, I am flawed, but I am loved, therefore I am empowered.
I hope this inspires you to have a little faith in your own life. Don't be afraid to search for it if you don't have it.
Love Heids Xx